With my sharply focused autistic mind well and truly zoomed in on my ability to get Tai Chi right, I notice a hesitation.
A micro second hesistancy which alters my performance.
Which sets me apart from those who don’t think.
From those who have programmed the movement into kinaesthetic memory unwaveringly.
Because I think very fast and I am extremely focused, I appear NOT to be overthinking as much as the novices, but I am.
Not letting go seems to be an intrinsic part of my Aspergers, almost as if I don’t quite have the same mental space to let go to.
What I also wonder is if I wasn’t processing the question ‘if I am right about this the next move is…’ would my performance improve.
This is where programs like the Landmark Forum teach us to excel. By giving us an awareness of the semi-conscious thought patterns we run, we get to choose not to do them.
Or in my case use even more mental energy observing them as they occur.
See you on the other side of the looking glass,
mark ty-wharton
December 4th, 2009 at 4:12 pm
Tai Chi sounds interesting, i’d like to hear about what it is. I’m working on a thought observatory. I’ve named it “Watch that stream of thought – stressy pants”. Here’s a section from it:
“…Watch that stream of thought!
Stressy pants!
- When you know you have to brush your teeth
- When you know you’ve forgotten something
- When you use a zip mechanism normally found on a leisure material object such as a suitcase
- When you HAVE to get something from the other room
- When in the time it takes to open the kettle lid pour water from the tap and then shut
- When that door bangs from upstairs
- When that annoying microwave alarm sound tells you your pastas done
- When you remember that you are thinking…”
The list will become comprehensive absolutely and then i’ll only have the one thought that arises which is “the Watch that stream of thought document” and then i’ll be able to add empty spaces into my word document…lol