If I Am Right About This

With my sharply focused autistic mind well and truly zoomed in on my ability to get Tai Chi right, I notice a hesitation.

A micro second hesistancy which alters my performance.

Which sets me apart from those who don’t think.

From those who have programmed the movement into kinaesthetic memory unwaveringly.

Because I think very fast and I am extremely focused, I appear NOT to be overthinking as much as the novices, but I am.

Not letting go seems to be an intrinsic part of my Aspergers, almost as if I don’t quite have the same mental space to let go to.

What I also wonder is if I wasn’t processing the question ‘if I am right about this the next move is…’ would my performance improve.

This is where programs like the Landmark Forum teach us to excel. By giving us an awareness of the semi-conscious thought patterns we run, we get to choose not to do them.

Or in my case use even more mental energy observing them as they occur.

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

mark ty-wharton