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Nov 01

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I recently signed up to John Assaraf’s newsletter, after buying his excellent book, The Answer.

I particularly like Law Of Attraction material with a tangeable scientific base and John certainly knows his subject.

On his FaceBook feed John introduced us to his colleague Mike Koenigs, co-founder of TrafficGeyser.

While I find it hard to read facial expressions in a social setting, I like to freeze frame the videos of people who are selling to me from time to time and study their faces.

I am a great believer in micro-expressions. Micro-expressions give away what a person is really like / thinking.

Try it on Joe Vitale for example.

Run one of his sales videos for a bit, then randomly pause it and see what you get. In an all digital world, it is very easy to do. And in the split second of a frozen frame a person will often reveal to you what they are thinking in a micro-expression.

What do YOU get from Joe Vitale?

As a disclaimer, remember depending on who trained them, a GOOD presenter is often taught to present to a single person they hold in their imagination, so what you get, may not be aimed at you personally!

Another author from The Secret, has a micro expression that involves sticking out his tongue in a yah boo sucks “that showed you” manner.

Maybe the person is driven to prove to someone from their past they could make it. Hopefully it is not aimed at us…

Onto the competition.

I was watching the Mike Koenigs video presentation, when my son interrupted me for a glass of milk.

So what do you think he is trying to say!

Caption Competition

Comment below…

Best comment gets a free paperback copy of The Logic Of Attraction,

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary
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Jun 16

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I have had the ghost of Simon Le Bon’s opinion living with me all day.
Simon was a great believer in the idea that the early success of Duran Duran was born out of a hunger for fame and fortune.
And that subsequent or later albums were the more complacent ramblings of accomplished musicians.
So here I am, writing.

And here I am wondering if writing alone will pay the bills.
Do I care?
Not really, it’s not why I am doing it.
Remember, I am a bohemian with Aspergers who does nothing but get high on chocolate and have revelations about consciousness.

Am I hungry?
Not really, I just ate a bar of chocolate.
And so did my lovely partner, who just happens to have a city job.

So, I am a well fed (almost?) middle aged complacent rambler who is at liberty to get high on chocolate and sit around meditating.
One of life’s great thinkers, only unlike some of life’s philosophers, not suffering extreme hardship.
The only hardship I suffered this week was when the broadband went off for an hour.
I recognised that I have always and will always survive on handouts.

I am a cash cow waiting to happen!
I can simply wake up one day, have worse tics and get dialectically disoriented and Gina can shout “carer’s allowance”.
Moments later, crisp government forms with lithographic ink and boxes to cross, tick and sign will litter the threshold of our home.
And within moments my autism status will go from green to red.
And with an “avast me hearties” I’ll poke out the local Bobby’s eye with my Autism Alert card!

But what’s this?
Life is looking up…
Inspiration is at hand!

The cat has just knocked my Chinese hair restoring tonic down the stairs and it has spilled out all over the floor.
The carpet is probably going to be like bull rushes come morning.
Hope I don’t find any wicker baskets bearing babies among them, it’s hard enough dealing with one of the little buggers!

And at £50 a bottle, do I care?
I’ll always have money, so what does it mean?
Perhaps I should end by making a stupid joke about wolves?
Nope, I’ll leave it.

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary

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Jun 02

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How do you tell when someone is lying?
And why do humans have a consistent need to lie to one another?
I allowed someone to lie to me yesterday and nodded my head politely just to see how far he would take it.

This person on the surface, is a very genuine looking and sounding bloke.
His eye contact is great and I only spotted one tell tale eye flutter, which may actually have been confusion over my refusing to engage with him over an electrical cable which we both know is potentially lethal.
Who am I talking about?
The builder!

If you have been following me on Twitter, you will know we just had some minor alterations carried out to the house we moved to.
Because of the builder’s continued promises and apologies, we have made decisions based on the information he has given us, which have literally turned our lives upside down.
Something about this person had me trust him. A part of me always believed what he said and I am still giving him benefit of doubt.
He actually does all the right things to appear trustworthy.
Perhaps at the moment he says it, he actually believes it himself?

I knew he was leaving yesterday never to return, when I made him a cup of tea in a mug with his business logo on it.
After loading all his tools onto his van (to get them out my way) and being reassured he was only loading the things he didn’t need for our job, he made motions to start work.
There was an atmosphere of adrenalin. I could almost feel the panic in the air.
He was making all the right noises, explaining how he would move the furniture around to do the floors and that the replacement bath was at the suppliers.
But he had arrived with a fifteen year old lad and not the Corgi registered plumber he had promised to bring with him, something was clearly wrong.
I sensed he needed to be somewhere else in a hurry.
He seemed late for another engagement and the circular saw seemed to be an important part of it.

He was taking great care to explain everything in way too much detail.
The game became such that he thought I didn’t know what he was doing – while I played along with him.
Why?
Because I think the relationship has passed the point where any genuine communication can take place.
Because I don’t think he is capable of finishing the work.
Because the fastest way to get my life back on track was to let him show his true colours.

I rather hoped he would step up to the mark and have a real conversation with me, arrive at a solution.
He decided to take the money and run.
He explained in rediculous detail that the roller he was about to paint my partner’s office with needed to be replaced and he was just popping out to buy another one.
He promised to return within an hour.
As he reversed down the drive, I looked for the mugs.
They were gone.

Given that we have paid nearly all the monies due for the work, what am I attracting?
Have I been mugged? Or taken for a mug?
You tell me!

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary

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Apr 20

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It is my son’s fourth birthday today. We have been celebrating. While I gave him loads of gifts, the best gift I can give him today is to be genuine.

So here is an admission:

I am actually squirming as I write this…

I am a name dropper!

I discovered something I do in life which is a block for me and is at best a bit slimy but at worst completely self depreciating.

I have been hanging off my famous friends coat tails and using my association with them to further my career!

In fact if I recall, once a time upon, most of my friendships started with thinking “What can this person do for me?” and “If people see I am working with The XYZ, they will want me to work with them too!”

I think there is also a hope, if one of them tells me what I am doing is good, or endorses what I do, it will somehow validate my existence and give my life and this time around, my current product, my book, meaning.

It’s a bit like taking a tune to an A&R man and waiting for the nod, the nod of approval. The nod of approval they will only ever give when you are on fire with your own creativity. Like everything else, it’s all in the unspoken communication.

If you are a NO you’ll get a NO.

Okay there are one or two genuine friendships along the way, the rest are history so to speak, or should I say no longer to speak to.

Recently, I even tried to befriend some brand new famous people. Stephen Fry via Twitter, Bob Proctor and Joe Vitale from the movie The Secret, The Dalai Lama and Werner Erhard to name a few.

In a way, Joe Vitale is the guy who somehow (don’t ask me how) got me to realise I am being a slime ball by doing it.

I was basically working on the premise “If I can get this guy to Tweet about my book, loads of people will buy it”.

Not that there is anything intrinsically wrong with doing it, a lot of people build their social networks in exactly this way.

And maybe that’s the key. Social networks. I have Aspergers and was somehow missing the point of the whole thing beyond “how can I generate more leads?”

Here’s the thing!

Because I say that I don’t and won’t do it, I now have an integrity issue.

I’ve put a lot of energy into making people notice me! Especially the famous… Trying to force their hand to get them to believe in me by sending them a book, while perhaps not believing in it enough myself.

What I have just seen about myself, is I need people who are at a certain level to validate my work. And there’s the hideous irony.

I am the guy that says there are no levels!

The interesting thing about Twitter is that I have actually made some really meaningful connections along the way.

I would go on to say, there are a small circle of us accelerating one another’s enlightenment in 140 characters or less.

So much so in fact, that I am now a YES!

If you are not already, follow me on Twitter, my user name is @mark_tywharton

Specifically check out some of the people I am following. The theme… Is LOVE!

Are any of them famous?

Not yet!

In my experience, many famous people are famous to make up for their own insecurities and helping someone else climb the ladder to fame and fortune would of course make them feel insecure, so they won’t do it!

The really meaningful connections are coming from people whose lives I am making a difference in, people I have been giving something to rather than trying to get something from.

Of course, I was attracting an exact reflection of me. So you’ll have
to take my word for it or put it down to my flawed perception :-)

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary

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Apr 08

I have been following Amy on Twitter and she is a great person to follow. You can read her tweets here http://twitter.com/allaboutenergy

When I purchased her Money Reiki Meditation, the following night I put it in my iPod on loop, fell asleep and programmed it into my sub-conscious about 21 times!

I love this blog post, it complements my work perfectly. I certainly got exactly what I asked for…

In it, Amy actually reveals ‘The Secret’ of The Logic Of Attraction…

So, if you want the answers, read on!

I give you, Amy Flynn…

LOVE IS THE ONLY ENERGY

I am Amy, Mark has asked me to contribute a “perfect” post for his “Blog Tour”.  Since Mark just shared with me recently that he bought a book that says I Love You in all the known languages, I thought a post on Love would be quite suitable to share with his readers.  I have gotten to know and greatly appreciate Mark through the microblogging service twitter. He has received Money Reiki healing from me and enjoys my Money Reiki Healing Meditation MP3 regularly.  (I will give you links at the bottom of the post for everything).  I enjoy Mark, I love his mind and how it works.  Enjoy my contribution to the Logic Attraction blog.
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What is Love?  Actually Love is a force, an energy and it is you.  Too often we use the word Love as verb as something we do.  Truth is, when we are in touch with the truth of our being – who and what we are – the ONLY thing we do is Love. More accurately the only thing we Be is Love.

Love is the only Energy.
The only Force of True Creation.

We are created out of Absolute Love and this is where we return, to Absolute Love.  Love is not a concept or word – it is a force, an Energy.  Many of us are stuck in conditioned thinking of Love as concept – a noun or a verb.   This is not Love, but rather human created constructs which came into existence as an effort to speak about Love.  Absolute Love cannot be communicated in word, only as energetic Being (or expression) of the Love Energy.  When we, as Created Beings,  manifest – we are essentially Loving something into Being.  When we free something, we are essentially Loving it into freedom.  You’ve heard it said that Attention equals Love … consistent Attention placed is consistent Love placed.   “Energy flows where Attention goes”… is it all connecting?   A very direct route to the Love Energy vibration is the vibration of Profound Gratitude.   It can’t help but deliver you to an experience of Absolute Love.

When truly in the vibration of unconditional and absolute Love, many of the Universal Laws seem to fall away.  This is the highest vibration and places you outside any limitation – you are truly unbounded.    It is almost as if the Universal Laws exist to lovingly guide each of us into Being our true nature, which is pure Love.  The only Law that is noticeable is the Law of Love.  And with pure unconditional Love all things are possible.

I personally have noticed when I am being Unconditional and Absolute Love, time ceases, space evaporates, miraculous and magnificent things are created with absolute ease, there is no duality experienced – just pure Unity, everything “just is” and relative comparisons cease.   I also notice there is no sense of “I” present at all, but some larger Energy expressing, my true nature.   Infinite and unbounded, limitless.

It is the space of miracles.

I am Amy Flynn and you can find me at http://allabout-energy.com and http://MoneyReikiHealing.com. At either one of these sites you can sign up for my awesome (as readers call it) ezine “Energy Currents” and a free Money Reiki Healing to dramatically shift the prosperity flowing to you.   You can also experience fun with me on twitter at http://twitter.com/allaboutenergy .  The Money Reiki Healing Meditation that Mark uses and enjoys so much is found at: http://Meditation.MoneyReikiHealing.com

I enjoyed participating in Mark’s “Blog Tour” and with all of you.  I hope you enjoyed the energy of my contribution and will go out into the world and share the Love that YOU are with all you encounter!

To read the other guest entries click here: http://aspergineering.com/blog/

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Mar 27

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Gina has been working on the comments for my anxiety e-book this evening, while I have been designing the cover.

I am really pleased with it overall and will be working on the final manuscript over the weekend.

I hope to be able to deliver the finished article sometime on Monday.

The download will be free, while a printed copy will be available from Lulu.

Now talking of printed copies of things, I have a request.

If you haven’t already done so, please go and buy my first book.

If you are not in a hurry, please buy the printed copy, or order it from your library.

The process is actually really simple.

Take a note of this number with you: ISBN: 978-1-4092-6028-8

Join your local library (if you haven’t already).

Ask them to order the book for you.

You will be helping me, as well as hundreds of people in your area who might not otherwise find out about it.

Now, while digging around looking for the photograph I am using on the cover, I discovered more Duran memorabila, so I am going to have another competition.

All will be revealed next week. (And no, it’s not the master tapes :-)

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary

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Mar 26

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I am going to use my blog as a sounding board for an idea. I gladly welcome comments on what I write over the next few posts and with permission would like to use relevant stories. If you post a comment please bear in mind it may end up published elsewhere.

I have decided to write an e-book about panic disorder.

While this book is a ‘left field’ look at what I have figured out about me, it may just work for you to. I invite you to listen to my story and take what’s useful and leave what’s not behind.

This blog entry will form the basis of chapter six.

So what are the benefits of having anxiety?

The first benefit is that I know I can handle anything.

With anxiety or a panic attack there is a glass ceiling. In my experience there is a finite supply of the neuro-chemical that causes anxiety, which means if I am anxious, or jumping out of a plane, I feel roughly the same.

Which in turn means, if an action involves doing things I can physically or mentally do when I am having a panic attack I can do it.

In my case, I can still walk, I can still see, I can still talk to people. I can understand simple direct instructions and much more.

A predisposition towards anxiety and panic actually means that with some training I can be good at things which need razor sharp focus, tense muscles and unwavering concentration.

Chances are I would make a very good racing driver, boxer or even a comedian, look at Lee Evans for example.

I have learned that I literally get so far and no matter how frightened I am it doesn’t get any worse.

So if something is terrifying I can do it.

Bottom line…

I can do it.

In fact because I am practiced at dealing with the neuro-chemistry, I am at a distinct advantage. I personally believe anxiety is something human beings, who have it, should be embracing and learning to switch adrenalin to something useful like clarity maybe?

Okay to put everything in context, if you asked a snow boarding enthusiast if they would like to snow board every day for the rest of his life the chances are they may want time off.

And to help you to take time off I am going to look at some psychological tricks you can employ to manage anxiety.

The first one is to learn to meditate. You don’t need to reach thoughtless awareness. All you need do is get to a place where you are relaxed and you recognise your thoughts.

Meditate with the intention of becoming completely thoughtless, of being in an empty space without meaning. This will allow you to focus on your thoughts and recognise them as they come to you. Sounds paradoxical doesn’t it? It is not.

Typically in anxiety and panic disorders, the person experiencing the condition will be in a kind of day dream, locked into an almost obsessive thought pattern known as a vicious cycle.

Once started, it is very difficult to break out of.

Thoughts naturally occur in cycles anyway and typically an event will break even the most focused train of thought.

However, the physiology of anxiety, the presence of the neuro-chemical, will be a reminder to get right back on that thought as soon as whatever broke it has gone. For me, distraction therapy such as reading a book, or newspaper, or focusing on an external event simply doesn’t work once a vicious cycle is underway.

With a vicious cycle, the easiest thing to do is not to let one get started.

Break the train of thought before it starts.

So you probably want to know how to do it right?

If you spend time focusing on being relaxed and in thoughtless awareness, your thoughts will occupy a familiar space.

Monitor your thoughts.

Practice only indulging thoughts which are facts.

Avoid recollecting stories from the past.

If you have a thought like “wow, this is spooky/weird” then don’t start thinking of other times when things were spooky/weird. If you think about other times this happened, you will create more negative feelings, which will in turn trigger more negative thoughts.

Don’t think about why you shouldn’t be thinking the thought either, this is just as bad.

When the thought pops into your head, simply don’t allow yourself to consider it, drop it like a hot brick, move on to the next thought.

Ignore all statements such as:

I wonder if…

What if…

Only rely on what you perceive to be the truth with your senses, what is in the present right now, not your past experience or what might happen.

Of course the psychological tricks might not work immediately. These kind of exercises take commitment and practice, so what else can you do to manage anxiety?

Here’s an obvious one if you suffer from social phobias. Stay at home. Don’t go out. Communicate via the Internet, have your shopping delivered.

Find a safe person who understands what is going on with you. Get an advocate, or a mentor from a befriending service to help you.

If you suffer from anxiety from being alone, go out. Make sure you have people you can contact if you start to feel off.

Take medication.

Personally I am terrified of medicine because most of the time I have a paradoxical reaction to it and it can have the opposite effect and make my anxiety considerably worse.

However if you work with your doctor, you should be able to come up with a solution that works.

Why have I mentioned doctors before alternative therapies and natural medicines?

Because your doctor should be your first port of call.

If you’re suffering from symptoms of panic, it’s important to see a doctor to rule out the following possibilties:

Hyperthyroidism
Hypoglycemia
Medication withdrawal
Mitral valve prolapse, a minor cardiac problem that occurs when one of the heart’s valves doesn’t close correctly.
Stimulant use (amphetamines, cocaine, caffeine)

Please eliminate other illnesses that may cause similar symptoms before trying anything in this book, regardless of what you believe about modern medicine.

Alternative therapies that have worked for me in the past include:

Anything that is relaxing, my favourites are Bowen technique, Tai Chi and Yoga.

I recently read that Chamomile tea works when brewed very strongly, if you put 4 tea bags in a cup and make it like a syrup.

Hibiscus, Lavender and Sandalwood are all good too, as are Vervain and Valerian.

And what to avoid?

Alcohol, Amphetamines, Caffeine, Cannabis, Cocaine, Dairy products, Ecstasy, Flavourings, Guarana, Mercury fillings, Nicotine, Other recreational drugs, Preservatives, Processed foods, Refined Sugar, Wheat.

If you are serious about mastering anxiety, my final advice would be to have your mercury fillings removed (if you have them) and after doing a detox program to eliminate residual heavy metals from your system, eat a natural low carbohydrate diet of super foods, fruit, vegetables, white meat and drink only water.

Whatever you do, believe in it or don’t do it at all.

As I said in my book, ‘The Law Of Attraction states that thoughts (both conscious and unconscious) dictate the reality of your life, whether or not you are aware of it’.

It can also be stated that ‘What you think is what you feel’.

I don’t think I have written anything new here. I do however hope to have taken a new look at anxiety, and, perhaps explored a few things from different angles.

In the year 1600, Shakespeare gave Hamlet the following line “There is neither good nor ill but thinking makes it so”.

And here we are 400 years on with roughly the same struggle.

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary

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My head is like a pressure cooker full of thoughts, just bursting to let off steam and this blog is a perfect place to release some of that pressure.

One day I will have someone to transcribe everything and I will be relaxed. Really I will. Life will be amazing.

I got to thinking about amazing this morning and an invitation I received to live a life I love, to live an amazing life because I am only here once, to live life to the full.

I have been struggling with this concept ever since, until today.

When I look around me at the things I have, it seems almost as if most of it is here by default. I have been a lazy creator, a complainer and what has shown up for me is bitty and incomplete, or seems so.

I am not the rock star I dreamed I would be, I am not surrounded by a pride of wanton women and I don’t have a Rolls Royce Platinum in the garage. Life isn’t as amazing as I thought it would be BUT there is still hope.

I have a mind and one day I’ll come up with a solution which will change everything.

And that’s the key. I live in hope. I am waiting for life to be amazing.

When they said “When will your life be amazing?” I thought I was being pushed and cajoled to get off my butt and do something. I thought I was in another one of those school pep talks from a well meaning teacher, though this time in the form of a seemingly successful guy with a microphone.

I wasn’t.

Since before time began, hope has been used to drive human beings, and it is the stocks and shackles we bind ourselves in. There’s always hope. Hope keeps us going and gives us nothing. It might be a great emotion to use in battle, fury or struggle. It’s no emotion to have around in personal development.

Ever since that day I have been doing everything it takes to have an amazing life then getting knackered and fed up and howling at the moon. Then calling God a c*nt.

Is today radically different to any other?

My day so far…

Okay if it sounds like a whinge, bear with me, I am painting a picture.

A toddler kicked and thrashed me into life this morning, which for a man with autism coming out of peaceful slumber is the fastest route to sensory overload I know and tends to screw up the whole day. My brain feels a bit weird as a consequence.

I had to retrieve my partner’s bicycle from the train station because someone stole her front wheel. Ironically I gave away all my spare bike parts so I now have to source a new one.

I have a head full of ideas and a rule that I don’t switch my computer on before 10:30am – it is 08:45am and I am sitting at it typing. I have failed!

I am hungry, angry and tired and the day has barely started.

Despite all this I am here doing everything it takes to get to a place where life is amazing.

Hopefully…

I’ll figure it out…

A perfect life for me might be having a house keeper who dressed my child, played with him and brought me super juice when I was ready to get up. Perhaps stroking my face gently with ostrich feathers.

Who knows really, the problem is I am not sure I can even visualise the outcome, so how can I work towards it?

And actually do I KNOW what an amazing life would look like?

Then…

I got it…

It’s all about semantics and perception isn’t it.

Help me out if I am catching the rest of you up here.

It may be because the American concept of GRATITUDE gets up my nose and feels a little trite. Perhaps the British perception of “Gratitude” said with an American “Have A Nice Day” attitude is that it is a little contrived and shallow.

I have been doing everything it takes and totally missing out that life is a miracle.

There is NOTHING TO DO and NO PLACE TO GET TO so that I can have an amazing life.

All I have to do, right here, right now, is declare my life amazing.

I don’t have to be an athletic DRIVEN by success Tony Robbins type to get this.

I don’t need to ATTRACT a Rolls Royce Platinum.

I don’t need to pray or get into a zen like state. I don’t even need to be thankful.

All I need to do is give up hope!

When I open my eyes and look around me, all I need to get is…

Life is truly amazing…

If I get that, then I am living life to the full…

Life IS the fu*king miracle!!!

I AM HERE!!! WOW!!!

What else could I possibly need?

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary

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It strikes me as odd that the people who appear to have all the answers for me, are not the high flying self-development gurus with multi-million pound mansions and cute cars, or is that wives?

Even my fairly meagre following gets a view point which is sadly distilled by ego.

I might have the answers but I want you to ignore me.

Look for someone with less followers and subscribers, they’ll tell you what to do.

What the hell would you want with a perfect life anyway.

Where would be the fun in that?

I probably have a few new questions and a different set of problems to solve than the average population, but bottom line is I am just as vulnerable as the next guy.

You see, the game of life relies entirely on one thing.

Forgetting what we are doing here.

And actually that is a deliberate pun on the double edge sword or being.

We cannot play the game at all if we remember why we are here.

Because if we remember why we are here, we have to forget who we think we are.

If we all knew the answer to life the Universe and everything we would just be a blob of energy floating around with bugger all to do.

One energy, without polarity or substance.

Stuff is the key.

It’s one thing for me to write a book explaining the how to’s and wherefores and quite another for me to live it.

I actually don’t want to either.

I want to make mistakes and have problems. I want to be depressed and angry at the Universe and say fu*k and throw spanners at my motorbike. If it didn’t go wrong it would be really boring.

I am going to be really honest.

I haven’t sold as many books as I thought I would.

I am fu*king pissed off about it.

I was actually shouting at the ceiling in the kitchen earlier, something along the lines of “you give me this book, you Universal energy c*nt, and I do all the fu*king hard work and type it for you, I even design you a cover and learn about publishing, then you don’t send anyone to buy it. Next time you want a book writing, get someone else to do it. Either send me some readers, or FU*K OFF!”

Of course, you get the irony.

Last time I told God (or the spiritual architect in my belief system) to fu*k off, I got the help I needed if I recall.

I think it’s called frustration, and people with Aspergers are diagnosed with it. It probably has an entry in the DSM-IV (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, 4th Edition).

As the day has progressed I realise I have learned a valuable lesson. Another layer of consciousness peeled back perhaps?

I say I am happy.

Am I?

I talk of synthesising happiness and not allowing circumstance to dictate how I feel.

But I am not creating from nothing. I am creating happiness from hope.

I have been happy since I decided to write a book.

I have been busy writing, busy laying it out, busy designing it, learning about publishing and now learning about sales.

And now I have learned a valuable lesson?

I hope so…

While there is a possibility I am going to sell books, my life has purpose and I am happy and inspired to write, create podcasts and interact with the world.

Where possibility closes down, I am darn right depressed, playing my trump card “what’s the fu*king point” so dark that “I can’t be bothered to contemplate ending it all”.

And I am struggling to make eye contact and interact.

People are pissing me off.

Now…

Having heard my sad pathetic little tale of woe and despair, what am I going to do about it?

Well…

I am going to start by generating some happiness.

Then I am going to go to bed.

Before I started writing, I was given…

“You know if you want to sell anything in this climate, the best thing to do is sell from the future”.

And I personally think the advertising guys are pretty much fu*ked.

Twitter is totally littered with reasons why this sales copy and that won’t work.

So a happy guy with a sales technique from the future, that might just be the answer.

I wonder if that’s a strategy – LOL

Hell, I could even write a book on it.

See you on the other side of the looking glass,

creative thinker | innovator | visionary

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